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HermitAssasin

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It's been a while... senses have been all over the place, focused on life, growing up, trauma and moving away from what I once felt was a big part of my childlike love of art and life. I remember when I used to come to this site so often, just writing poems, using old art program on old pc to make abstract pieces, chatting with good friends and even meeting interesting people and making good memes along the way.

But sadly, all things end, and I hate that I left this place all those years ago, gave up on my dreams, and even failed to make connections last the moments I was on this marvelous, if now even somewhat perverse place that made places like facebook look lame by comparison. So I say to those still on who read this, Hello again... it's been a while. I hope all of you who do read this are doing ok. I sadly am not but still plan to survive and I hope that my artistic spark returns to me again one day. Because the art has died a bit in my soul, mostly due to stress, hurting people I cared for... that and failing to go to college or even make eventful progress towards my dreams outside small game making project with a friend and me still hoping my sat scores still valid to this community college in the area I was forced to move to is pretty much my only goals now a days... the rest is waiting, hating, and feeling like i wasted my life.

So I say good bye to this place, not the world but places like this. I used to be unhappy alone but now I don't even want that unhappiness seeping into my lives online. I only hope that those who read this who still use this platform having good life, and those who gave up on this one, only out of boredom, disgust, or other reason I know nothing of, know I hope their lives have been good in other places... I don't know if this is good bye forever, wouldn't get on here if i felt that... But it's end of my childhood and dreams that i left here hoping it was worth sharing. Only hope that's true in long run.

Thank you for all the memories,
May we meet again someday,
Justin S Racine/HermitAssassin
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While going online I went to thank ::YoungShadowWolf:: for faving one of the poetic odes I did not too long ago, and came across this Pokemon tag, where you basically look over some questions, go to a random Pokemon sprite generator like Randompokemon.com, and paste the image and your reaction to it, while I won't be using the same questions as the one's she posted, I will go by the same rules, and see what comes up.

1. Most likely to play video games with me:

Doubt he could pick up a controller with those hands, but hey, maybe he uses his beak as a ds stylus. :XD:

2. Most likely to steal my shit:

I knew that woolly hair hid deception, if only I realized it after he took my wallet.

3. A good best friend:

A samurai Otter who can crush a-holes either with razor sharp shells or tidal waves.... Yeah, best friend forever, especially considering water starters are my fave.

4. Best source of areal transportation for me:

Hey, that beak is basically a first-class seat, then again I don't know how big Pelliper is to begin with, but just imagine if he was big enough to hold you in that thing, it would be like traveling inside monsto but in the sky. :meow:

5. Biggest douche in the universe:

Once it get's that super fairy move, I can understand why. XD

6. My ideal woman in Pokemon form (not counting baby or first evolutions because pedophilia is douchy):

... Really RG?? Well I suppose the extra hands would be a plus XD (may I remind everyone this is not to be taken super seriously, and that I am not condoning poke-philia either, I mean I get why some people like it, but you know, it's a niche interest some people just find.... Yeah I think I should shut up about this now) :B


Will probably update and post more questions and responses later in the future. I suggest those who read this give it a shot when they have to time, or even post suggestions on what the next question should be.
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Got Tagged by my good friend Got tagged by :Oceanisuna: 

Rules


:grin: - You must posts these rules.
:nuu: - Each person has to share 10 things about them
Talky - Answer the 10 questions asked to you and invent 10 questions the people you tag will have to answer.
:randomdeviant: - Choose 10 people and put their icons on your journal 
:gtfo: - Go to their page to inform them they are tagged
:evileye3: - Not something like " you are tagged if you read that"
:ohnoes - You have to legitimately tag 10 people
:talktothehand: revamp - No tag-backs
Choclate Hyper by Gomotes - You can't say that you don't do tags.
:rant: - YOU MUST MAKE A JOURNAL ENTRY. NO COMMENTS. Unless you're commenting about the actual entry

About Me

1. Have High-functioning Autism (AS to be exact)
2. Will be 21 in July
3. Still looking for love, despite hiding in my home :sleep:
4. Making friends with everyone I come across.
5. Spends alone time online, playing games, watching vids, looking up interesting stories.
6. Hope to become a freelance writer who will travel the world.
7. Believes that all faiths are one in the same in the end so why fight?
8. League of Legends summoner's name is JasonNero
9. Loves all forms of anime and comics (the naughty one's especially :meow: )
10. Hope I am on the right track in life


Her Questions

What is your favorite Pokemon, if you like or know what Pokemon is? 
Diglett - Especially this one - 
What is your favorite game?
 
The Megami Tensei series comes to mind, that and mega man.
Do you like things sweet or sour? 
Both are good if eaten moderately enough
What do you like about life? 
The beauty of nature and technology, and the people who live here :meow:
What is your favorite memory? 
Too many good one's to chose from
Do you have any dislikes about anything?
Just toxic and ungrateful people like the one's you see in League sometimes. Such tools. 
If you could live in outter space or anywhere you would like, where would it be? 
Any universe where I can meet lovely ladies more easily who love me for me. :rose:
What fantasy/mythical creature would you want to be?
Had a vision with the Thunderbird. In some myths that makes me the sacred clown who specializes in nonsense and satire.... Yep fit's me just right XD
Imagine what you want me to be?
Just someone who can make people happy and to have fun times with no matter what. :) 
Do you like the outdoors or indoors and why?
While I prefer the inside for the internet and games I get to play, but lately I have been going out more, doing open mikes, meditations with friends, just traveling all around as good for me.

To the readers
If you wish to join in on this, feel free to join in, I don't have any questions of my own, so feel free to either use my friend's questions, or make your own. Don't forget the 10 facts about you though. Hope this was fun. :meow:
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Well first things first, I broke up with my long distance relationship, although it was a mutual thing where no one got hurt. We just both agreed the romance was gone, and that more closer opportunities were in our grasp. We're still friends and I hope we both find a better match for ourselves. Already got one of my eyes on a friend of mine named Rachael, who although isn't looking for a relationship currently, has told me herself that I am a likely choice whenever she is ready to get serious, although knowing how sexy and awesome I am that won't take too long. :rose: *nut punched back to reality*

The most amazing update of all though is that a week ago from this post I discovered this neat cafe/bar called B Sharp that still does open mikes, bands, and other artistic gatherings. You'd think stuff like that would die out due to the internet sucking the life out of the real world (lord knows I get sucked in various times watching youtube or playing League of Legends) and this Monday was going to be even more special, because it was also going to be the first gathering of this new creative writing group filled with writers who lived around my town and most of Washington. When the day started I met loads of people I could relate to the moment I waled it. However I don't remember their names, and while their faces are all locked inside my mind the best way to describe their appearance and personality does not seem to be inside me at the moment, I will probably add those descriptions in later. Although the two writers I most remember, due to their support and tips are Richard Dorsett, a Trapeze artist and writer who after my reading gave me his card and the advice to keep on writing, and Joshua Swainson, a young author who wrote a book called The Tacoma Pill Junkies. Not only did I get a signed poster of the book's cover (I will later get the book from kindle), but when I told him I was going to Tacoma Community later this year he suggested a good starting teacher who could help me improve my writing skills.

As for the open mike, I was one of the first of three to arrive and sign in. I was waiting in anticipation as I learning from the experienced writer's reading their works and enjoying how new and exciting each story, fictional or otherwise was to my ears. Seeing them take the stage with such fearlessness and skill made me a bit nervous and hyped up, but when it got to my turn I managed not only to read my two poems out clearly, but in the end both works ended with a great clamor of cheers and claps. The fact I added a bit of improvised comedy in-between didn't hurt either, and I hope some of those very people who saw my work are here right now and know that I am not only glad that they liked my work, but that their praise and glee has helped me to recognize that this is one of the things I was meant to do for a living in life. Whither as a main career option is still left to be decided, but it's good to know I am not wasting time or energy while doing these tasks. Other then that I am glad to say my days have been well and I hope that to keep on improving and experiencing various forms of life and the graces that come with it despite hardship. I hope everyone who reads this also gets through the day and feel such joys in their own way. Although if that way involves murder, terrorism, or cannibilism, you may need to rethink your ways... just saying. Other then that, let everyone's days be grand and joyous.


- Justin S. Racine
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A good new friend of mine :iconhanarenee: after a few weeks of awesome friendship, has decided to make me the recipient for one of the internet's most common, yet also the most creatively innovative of things known as the Tag. Where you ask a group of pals/strangers/anyone some questions and they have to answer them anyway they like. I was once asked to do this once before, but I never got around to it, although this time as I have gotten to mature and better myself as a human being, find that this is the best opportunity to improve my skills as a writer, and maybe give you a closer look into my being, and how I go through life day by day. Here are the questions, and my answers to them, hopefully they are not too long:
my new questions for you:

1. is it possible to fall in love with someone you've only talked to but not physically met?
Yes, if you put enough time and effort into the relationship, and later plan to meet one another.

2. and have you ever?
I am currently in one right now with this sweet flower of a Woman from Ohio, I wrote a poem about her if you want to see it later.

3. is there someone in your past or present who has changed your life in ways that you'd be a different person today if that person never existed to you to begin with?
So many people have effected my life, for better and for worse, but it would be dick-ish of me to mention only a few when so many peeps have been there for me.

4. and would you be better or worse off?
Well, I am a bit of a manic-depressive anti-social bitch every now and then, but even I know without my friends, family, and every stranger in between I would be far worse.

5. math or english (literature)?
Literature, although I find math to be just as artful and invigorating if you know what your doing, which unfortunately I don't most of the time.

6. do you believe in a pre destined plan of events or random chances and choices? meaning: is something 'meant to be'?
Like Forest I believe that we do have a mix of both types, but even then there is so much in this world we have yet to discover, so might as well wait and see till we get an exact answer.

7. eye color, please.
Dark Brown

8. is being 'smart' the same as being 'intelligent'?
Being smart to me means knowing what your good at, while being intelligent means being able to handle even the situations you don't know how to deal with with wit and style, and even learning how to mix all your fields together into a working form of living.

9. what song describes you best? artist too please so i can youtube that shit. thanks.
The Bends - Radiohead

10. words you live by?
Poetry surrounds us everywhere, but putting it on paper is, alas, not so easy as looking at it. - Vincent Van Gogh

I won't force anyone to do these questions, but if you want to join me in this tagging feel free to let me know. That's all for today though. Have a good time
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